Do you ever feel helpless? Do you ever feel like other things in your life are controlling you, not the other way around?
That is how I felt today.
Work was extremely stressful. We are insanely busy and, sadly, there seems to be no light at the end of the tunnel. (As some of you may know, I am positive and happy 99% of the time. I love bringing good energy and having a smile on my face! Because LIFE IS GREAT! LIFE IS A BLESSING....)
But sometimes, my face hurts from smiling and all I want to do is say profanities every other word..this seems to happen most Wednesdays and Thursdays before 12pm.
It takes me a little while to calm down after work. Thank goodness I have a 30 minute drive to blast my music, talk to myself and say a prayer so that I get home safely.
I walk in the door, and most of my stress goes away once a little fur ball named Cooper runs to me with his favorite toy....
I take some deep breathes... and all my frustrations from my day go away.
I have breathe in my body! I have energy to work out! I have food in the fridge! The Lord has SAVED me!
I am human. I get frustrated. I get impatient. I get sad. But I do not wallow in my sadness. I do not walk around with my head towards the ground.
I try to never make excuses. NOT UP IN HERE!!!! Do not give me any excuses. I literally can not stand them. If I want something, you darn well know it is going to happen one way or another. If I want something, I do it myself. More or less, it is just me being impatient and wanting things NOW. But I have a serious drive when I set my mind to something. My dad always told me to "visualize"...visualize the foul shot going into the basket, visualize the "A"...I do not underestimate the power of visualization.
I will not live my life and look back one day and wish I would have done something differently. Not anymore. (see a video that I posted at facebook.com/60dayjourney-- "My Story") I understand that somethings will not happen as soon as I want them to (for instance, my body will not be as "ripped" as I want it in a 2 week period... it will take some hard work, dedication, and time!)
It is very easy to get caught up in the "woo is me" way of thinking, i.e. "My job is horrible" ;"I have no new clothes" ;"My hair is too brown." " I want to be skinnier." SNAP OUT OF IT!!!
The point is, I can get mad or, I can breathe, pray and be thankful for what the Good Lord has given me.
And I can yell...yelling helps too.
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